see?? i'm horrible at keeping up with writing! i have a running blog in my head, but it just doesn't seem paper (screen) worthy! you know...its all about every day stuff like food, dirt, dishwashers, dogs, kids, poop, fruit flies, mail, teeth, school, clothes, etc, etc, etc. we get into our routine, and although i love what i do, there's just not much to write about!
as i stated on my facebook status, i am experiencing my annual autumn restlessness. i feel restless and anxious and start making lists like a crazy person. so far i have made lists of birthdays, budgets, job possibilities with their earnings, christmas lists, birthday lists, list of books to read, list of home repairs, list of things to buy when dustin's gets his soccer check, things to give away list, chores to do in the house list, and...i think thats all. i started a new "list" notebook so that all my lists are in the same place. if i had the money, fall would be a very productive time of year because i'd be all over home repairs and chores!! i did buy knobs for the entry closet doors last night. as much as i like making lists, i HATE feeling this way. i have thought and prayed about it so much because there is just no rhyme or reason to it. i have narrowed it down to the possibility that there have been a lot of key changes in my life during the season of fall, and that somewhere deep in my sub-conscious my being begins to expect (or dread) a change.
some of the autumn changes i can think of are school starting every year as a kid, meeting dustin at fairmont, having my first child, moving to west virginia, hearing devestating news about levi, my grandparents dying, dustin getting a teaching job, and certain life-changing spiritual experiences. i think more impactful events in my life have taken place between the months of october and december than in any other time period of the year. so, this is my theory for now. while i live fairly independently for most of the year, its during this season that i have a strong need for community. i have begun to pray that God would see me through.
oh...and i'm reading a really good book for the third time. some books just get better and better the more you read them! this book is called "i am not a social activist", but the title is somewhat deceiving. my friend steffi bought it for me, and gifts is my love language, so its an extra special book to me! since this post is getting really long, maybe later on this week i'll write some of my favorite lines from the book. :)
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Friday, September 25, 2009
some days there are just no words. i yield my will to the will of God. i honor my husband. i love my children. it just seems so simple. today there is a just humility in the presence of a powerful God. who am i to be so blessed? i pray that my life would be a reflection of the redemptive nature of God.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
hungry hungry hippo
dustin has been making waffles every saturday morning for a couple of months now. last saturday the waffle iron died. it was only a 2-seater anyway, which means i'm in the market for a new, LARGER waffle iron. i've been online shopping for one that makes four at at time so that dustin can make waffles for all seven of us in less than an hour!
i think i'm hungry. waffles are on my mind, and i'm sad that i won't have them this week. popcorn also sounds good. as does chocolate pie. and iced tea with no sugar. and french toast from choochoos. but, i suppose i'll just eat some carrots like a good pregnant woman should.
hopefully by next week, i can have some waffles.
i think i'm hungry. waffles are on my mind, and i'm sad that i won't have them this week. popcorn also sounds good. as does chocolate pie. and iced tea with no sugar. and french toast from choochoos. but, i suppose i'll just eat some carrots like a good pregnant woman should.
hopefully by next week, i can have some waffles.
Monday, September 21, 2009
house list edit
i'm going back to do my first edit of my house wishlist! THANK YOU Cassie & crew for the bedframe!!
this weekend we had two great testimonies of healing. #1 a lady at church had a mammogram last week that showed a lump in her breast that had the possibility of being cancerous. she went for further testing, and the second round of tests showed no lump. comparing the two tests, one could see a lump in the first, and it was gone in the second. the second test was after she received prayer for health and healing. #2 diana stender's mother came to church last wednesday for prayer from the elders b/c she does not want to live on pain medication and was asking God to heal her body of pain. she was prayed for, and diana called to give a report on saturday that after receiving prayer, her mother is pain free and has not had to take any medication! is there really anything too small or too great for God?
this weekend we had two great testimonies of healing. #1 a lady at church had a mammogram last week that showed a lump in her breast that had the possibility of being cancerous. she went for further testing, and the second round of tests showed no lump. comparing the two tests, one could see a lump in the first, and it was gone in the second. the second test was after she received prayer for health and healing. #2 diana stender's mother came to church last wednesday for prayer from the elders b/c she does not want to live on pain medication and was asking God to heal her body of pain. she was prayed for, and diana called to give a report on saturday that after receiving prayer, her mother is pain free and has not had to take any medication! is there really anything too small or too great for God?
Friday, September 18, 2009
friday
today will be a great day! dustin will be home for dinner!! when i looked at the calendar last sunday evening, i knew this would be one of those weeks that i must just get through! three games of soccer, which means late, late nights for dustin. appointments on three evenings, which means later nights for the kids. and the unexpected: titus breaking his leg and having to spend hours at the vet! thankfully, we were able to turn it into an "educational" experience. ;) but, alas...its FRIDAY! i'm not one to rejoice in fridays on my facebook status, but here in the privacy of my own blog, let me say "i'm glad this week is over, and i'm soooooooo happy that its friday!"
today i will meet with my midwife again. i am 17 weeks closer to a homebirth. the idea that i am going to have to take this a week (or even a day) at a time has been great for me. it prevents me from making any concrete long term plans, which is good for my character and patience. i am anxious to hear what she says about my dr. appointment from a couple weeks ago. and hopefully i'll get to tell her all about the midwifery retreat!
i will make crockpot lasagna for supper. that way i can cook when i have my morning energy and then not have to think about it for the rest of the day!
oh...and something i've been thinking about--when my children are grown i pray that i never ever ever forget what it is like to have a young family. i want to be the kind of older woman that titus 2 talks about--teaching younger women to love their husbands and their children, to live wisely and pure and to take care of their homes. i pray that i remember these long days at home with no adult conversation and that i can be the voice of encouragement in a young mother's day. and i want to welcome little ones into my home so that tired moms and dads can take a night out together. so, here it is in writing. i can go back and read and remember what i committed to on today.
last but not least...this is how i love starting the morning: simone in the living room, spinning and singing, "god is great, beer is good, and people are crazy!" you gotta love that girl!! ;)
today i will meet with my midwife again. i am 17 weeks closer to a homebirth. the idea that i am going to have to take this a week (or even a day) at a time has been great for me. it prevents me from making any concrete long term plans, which is good for my character and patience. i am anxious to hear what she says about my dr. appointment from a couple weeks ago. and hopefully i'll get to tell her all about the midwifery retreat!
i will make crockpot lasagna for supper. that way i can cook when i have my morning energy and then not have to think about it for the rest of the day!
oh...and something i've been thinking about--when my children are grown i pray that i never ever ever forget what it is like to have a young family. i want to be the kind of older woman that titus 2 talks about--teaching younger women to love their husbands and their children, to live wisely and pure and to take care of their homes. i pray that i remember these long days at home with no adult conversation and that i can be the voice of encouragement in a young mother's day. and i want to welcome little ones into my home so that tired moms and dads can take a night out together. so, here it is in writing. i can go back and read and remember what i committed to on today.
last but not least...this is how i love starting the morning: simone in the living room, spinning and singing, "god is great, beer is good, and people are crazy!" you gotta love that girl!! ;)
Thursday, September 17, 2009
travelin' tik
nadia is officially WALKING! i consider anything more than eight steps and a fall followed by the attempt to get up and keep going "official" walking. she is slightly more steady in bare feet than shoed feet. and she is very, very, VERY proud of herself! of course, every step is celebrated with cheers and clapping from her brother and sisters, so nadia has started clapping as soon as she stands up! its the most adorable thing in the world!!
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
"at your cervix"
wow!! what a weekend!! i attended the "women helping women" midwifery conference at spruce knob, and my heart is full and my brain even MORE full!! i was the least experienced woman there as far as catching babies, and it was intimidating to be in a room with 50 women who, among them, have delivered literally THOUSANDS of babies!! but, everyone was so welcoming and helpful!
my class the first day was 8 hours of "beginning midwifery skills". i learned how to wash my hands, do diagnostic urine testing, use a fetoscope, check blood pressure, temperature, respirations, pulse, all about female reproductive anatomy, how to measure fundal height, how to feel baby in-utero, charting, informed decision making, and so many other things that i can't remember them to list right now! there is a lot for me to practice, so i need many women that i know to get pregnant so they can be my guinea pigs!! :) (hint hint: virginia, emily, brandy, tina)
after supper we learned about the different pathways to midwifery, and then we had charades and wine. fun times.
day 2 was more classes--some for the whole group and others that we could pick a topic such as post partum hemmorage, post partum care, shoulder dystocia, placenas, etc.
highlights:
+meeting two women whose business is called "at your cervix" LOVE it!
+a ob/gyn from mo-town teaching on post partum hemmorage. what a great class!
+ stuffing plastic women with cateloupe uterus' with plastic and gauze
+many one on one talks with experienced midwives. so much knowledge and experience from which to glean!
+playing with real placentas and learning how to capsulize them
+a divine connection with a doula/student midwife from marietta who is planning to attend my birth
+the game of charades that eventually ended up with wine-filled midwives acting out every word as "orgasm". wow.
+the drive up and down a 10 mile one lane gravel road. definitely almost heaven west virginia.
+carrying my own cup and napkin throughout the weekend in order to conserve wash water.
+feeling a baby within ruth ann's womb as i learned the leopold's maneuvers.
+spending an entire weekend with no tv, internet, radio, phone, etc. how peaceful.
+coming home. i missed my family soooooo much.
who wants to come with me next year????????
my class the first day was 8 hours of "beginning midwifery skills". i learned how to wash my hands, do diagnostic urine testing, use a fetoscope, check blood pressure, temperature, respirations, pulse, all about female reproductive anatomy, how to measure fundal height, how to feel baby in-utero, charting, informed decision making, and so many other things that i can't remember them to list right now! there is a lot for me to practice, so i need many women that i know to get pregnant so they can be my guinea pigs!! :) (hint hint: virginia, emily, brandy, tina)
after supper we learned about the different pathways to midwifery, and then we had charades and wine. fun times.
day 2 was more classes--some for the whole group and others that we could pick a topic such as post partum hemmorage, post partum care, shoulder dystocia, placenas, etc.
highlights:
+meeting two women whose business is called "at your cervix" LOVE it!
+a ob/gyn from mo-town teaching on post partum hemmorage. what a great class!
+ stuffing plastic women with cateloupe uterus' with plastic and gauze
+many one on one talks with experienced midwives. so much knowledge and experience from which to glean!
+playing with real placentas and learning how to capsulize them
+a divine connection with a doula/student midwife from marietta who is planning to attend my birth
+the game of charades that eventually ended up with wine-filled midwives acting out every word as "orgasm". wow.
+the drive up and down a 10 mile one lane gravel road. definitely almost heaven west virginia.
+carrying my own cup and napkin throughout the weekend in order to conserve wash water.
+feeling a baby within ruth ann's womb as i learned the leopold's maneuvers.
+spending an entire weekend with no tv, internet, radio, phone, etc. how peaceful.
+coming home. i missed my family soooooo much.
who wants to come with me next year????????
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